April 01, 2010

Pregnant again?

No, but I had a scare there for a few days. Wasn't sure.... Now I'm sure. Not pregnant. But what if I had been? When I wasn't sure and told Brady, Brady looked pretty scared for a few seconds, then asked, "How are you feeling about that?" And I said, "Um, I'm not doing feelings right now. I'm just waiting." He thought that was really funny. This is common in our relationship. He is someone who has feelings, and doesn't push them away or control them. They just are. They're there; they're a fact of life. I'm a different breed. I try to control them or ignore them, sometimes. Sometimes I'm not even trying to control or ignore them, it's just habit. I usually have to try to NOT control and ignore them.

Anyway, my feelings are pretty simple. It would be amazing and fun to have another little one. We want another one (eventually; not too long, but not too soon either). But, it's also really scary. How would I manage two of these little creatures? And I'm not real psyched about 9 months of pregnancy (again), birth (again), 9+ months of night nursing (again), and 9+ months of losing weight (again). And then balancing work and motherhood (forever). Hey, what is it about the number 9? It's magical, eh? 3x3. Maybe we should have 9 kids. (Ha! I say Ha! even to having three. Two and we are done).

2 comments:

Jen said...

It may seem like having another one would add a lot of chaos and work. Yes, it is true that it would at first. However, when they are close in age they become good friends and good playmates. So work in the beginning is inevitable at any age, but when they are close they can also be good friends and take some work away :) Spoken from the Mommy who has 2 boys 21 months apart :) I wouldn't change it for anything. They are the best of friends. Eliot would love to be a big brother whenever that day comes!

Petal said...

AWW! I wondered if you guys would ever want or have another kid. It would be really neat if you did, and of course I would help you guys out...aww...what if you had a girl!!?? Haha, I am talking like you are preg...I loves babies, of course...can't wait to have my own some day soon, I want four....